Advice

Now this is going to be a bit of a whingey blog. So feel free to skip reading it. After I posted my last blog, I received a number of comments and messages from people who (im sure mean well) are telling me why I am yet to fall pregnant. Now, I know they are just trying to give advice (and this isn’t aimed at one specific person but also for future reference for those who read these) but I am aware of the fact that being stressed will not help me fall pregnant. I know that I should just relax and not think about it. However, I challenge you all to not think about something that you really want. For example, if you are wanting to buy your first home and you’ve found the perfect one, all you need now is the home loan. I bet you that this will be on your mind at least 60% of the time because its something you really badly want, and I bet you do the figures over and over again while you’re waiting to see if you’re approved for the loan to see what your chances are of getting the loan, even though it will make no difference to the outcome. That’s what the 2WW is like for me. I think about it a lot of the time, I test early because the earlier I know the happier I will be and shockingly, less stressed!!

While PCOS affects 1 in 10 women, so you are bound to know AT LEAST one person that has it, it also affects everyone differently. While the symptoms are similar, no single person will have the exact same experiences/symptoms as the next person with PCOS. This goes the same for fertility and PCOS. Just because you know someone who has fallen pregnant straight away after being told they wouldn’t (like most of us with PCOS are told) doesn’t mean it will happen for the next person with PCOS. I know someone who fell pregnant her first month trying with PCOS and had a very healthy pregnancy and delivered a beautiful little girl. I also know someone else who tried for a very long time and had to go on medication for quite a few cycles to fall pregnant, she also now has a beautiful baby. Two very different cases from women who both have PCOS. We are into our 4^th month trying and I know that this is nothing compared to what a lot of women go through but this is how I am coping with it. In writing these blogs I am sharing my personal experiences with TTC with PCOS and how I deal with it. I am in no way saying “poor me look how hard my life is, feel sorry for me because I have fertility issues” even though it may come across to some of you in that way. If I could just relax and stop testing then I absolutely would, and admittedly I am not normally this bad during my 2WW, I normally only test every couple of days and don’t really worry about it. But the longer it takes, the more frustrated I get and the more I want a baby. I have done so much research into TTC its not funny. I know all the ins and outs of it (mind the pun ;) ) and I know everything that is required to make a baby. Turns out knowledge means nothing when luck is involved, and that is exactly what it comes down to. Luck and chance. This is what frustrates me the most because I have no control over it. I can do absolutely everything by the book, even be relaxed (like I was the first couple months) and it still may not work (as it hasn’t so far).

The reason why I started writing these blogs is because I wanted to share my experience of TTC with PCOS with others. I wanted to do this to help people who are also TTC (with or without PCOS) and to show people that it is not always rose petals and romance when trying to make a baby. I am in no way trying to say that EVERYONE with PCOS struggles to have babies, and I am also not saying that everyone who is trying feels the same way I do. The idea of this is to give me a place to vent and maybe gain support. I know that I will receive negative comments, that is bound to happen and I know there are people out there who will think they know better than I do about my own body and how it works, but please just think before you say anything, think of how it comes across. If you have to reassure someone in a comment that you’re writing, that its not meant to be personal, or “no offense” or anything similar, maybe rethink whether it will help or not and whether it will upset the person you are writing it to.

I really enjoy writing these and took a big leap when I chose to share them with those around me, so please go easy on me. I really am not looking for pity and I am not saying I am the only one going through a hard time with this process, I am just trying to find a way to relieve my stress and to get out what is going through my mind constantly in my 2WW. That is why I write these blogs. Not for anyone else, but for me. If people stop reading them, I will still write them, because so far they are helping.

 

Much Love & Rainbows,

Kimberly

Xoxox